3.29.2010

have i got a story for you! the fridge story....i am fighting with my fridge today....not becasue it is fun and not because i want to fight but because i have taken humpty dumpty apart and cannot put him back together again. notice i call the fridge a "him"...that is because it wont do what i want it to do just a like a him. actually i have done this puzzle a million times only today i don't have a lot of time (though i do have enough time to start a blog about it....) and i just cannot get the veggie drawer back in the fridge without resistance. can it sense my frustration? i have tried a dozen or more times....maybe two dozen....maybe a dozen dozen times! i should have figured it out by now. i can't.... i am stumped. i am stumped by a piece of plastic. how bad is that? it is a simple task (usually) so what part of my brain went for a walk today while i decided to do this job? worse yet what part of my brain has left me forever?

i don't do frustration well. no one in my house does. when someone loses something we all run into our own corner of the house that comforts us like a womb. losing something is the greatest frustration....until THIS!

it is the veggie drawer i am having trouble with...thank God. i ate a bag of radishes trying to calm down. but it reminds me that I do not do well with frustration as a rule. i am frustrated with my hair, my weight, my (non)state of holiness, my prayer life, my finances, my mental state, my physical state, gee i never realized a drawer in a fridge could bring so much up in me.

i guess i better start dealing with these frustrations. what if i have to work them all out before the drawer will simply slide in the right way with no resistance.... or worse yet....what if i have to learn to live with a certain amount of frustration?

noOoOoOOoooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!